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The Pursuit

The Pursuit

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The pursuit was on. Equality of the contestants was not issue. Their goals were not the same. The stalker had in mind to catch her prey, who wanted only to escape. Survival was the issue here. The prey would do what it had to to survive.

This scene had exploded far beyond stalking. The issue of route had been forced by the door locks. The little one could not reach them well enough to ensure the predator would not close its grasp on her shirt or hair before she could make it through the locks and dart through the door. Her pink hands were small and clumsy, so she focused herself on staying ahead of the predator.

The prey chose the usual path: through the small bathroom with the swinging doors; through the living room with the couch sporting a flowered throw cover; through the front foyer with the stairs leading to the third floor; then through the bedroom with the kitty-cornered chest o’ drawers. She could've gone the other route: through the kitchen; through the sewing room; through the playroom; through the large bedroom; and back to the kitchen, but the predator had slammed three of the doors shut the last time she had run through them, and the prey had to slow down to open each one.

The faster she put together what she had to do, the more hope she had of getting away, but she never got away. In the space of a breath all was decided. The prey moved her legs as quickly as they could go, taking the first step in the direction she liked was good; it helped her to think this was her game; her idea. It kept her from screaming.

She flung her body into the swinging door with all the force she could muster. She mewled her pain as her off-stride knee met the sharp corner of the lower panel. The next door hit squarely and missed her knee. Tears made it hard to see the flowered throw cover on the couch as she sped by it. In the foyer, the tears spilled over just in time to clear her vision enough to see that the predator had doubled-back on her. A shrill scream ripped out of her mouth as she slid and turned at the same time. It was a mistake that scream. It took from her much-needed air. She sobbed through her next inhale, shortchanging her lungs again.

She fell into the stairway leading to the third floor. Half crawling, her hands and feet sometimes missed the stairs sending her knees crashing into the edges. Fear had numbed her. Each one of the 11 stairs came more slowly than the next. Her lungs were not able to collect enough oxygen, and her heart pounded as it tried to pump the blood through faster to collect more fuel to burn. Her head was spinning. Not much longer now.

At the top of the stairs, she made her usual choice. The hallway moved by her in slow motion. She could see the bed in her brother's room. Her room had no window, and she feared the darkness lurking under her bed. She dove under her brother's bed, her breathing coming in ragged gasps. The predator entered the room.

“You better come out from under there,” whispered the woman. “You better come out from underneath the bed or I’ll drop the springs on you and cut you into little pieces.”

I looked up at the springs. The coils swirled up from a small circle close to my face and got bigger as they spiraled up towards the mattress over my body. Metal pieces bound the coils together. If she drops it on me and cuts me up, she'll never be able to put me back together. The old spring had been much better. It was just a rack; it had squares cut into triangles and would've left the pieces of my body bigger.

“Now…” Her teeth were grinding.

I looked at the spring and then at the afternoon light playing with shadows on the floor around my mother's black penny loafers; stark- white bobby-socks draped neatly over her ankles. It didn't matter. I had been too afraid to face even the rack cutting me into pieces.

Sobbing, I crawled into the light and my mother's reach.

I was 5-years-old.

Copyright 2017 Joyce Bowen

About the Author:  Joyce Bowen is a freelance writer and public speaker.  Inquiries can be made at crwriter@comcast.net
Sobre el autor: Joyce Bowen es un escritor independiente y orador público. Las consultas pueden hacerse en crwriter@comcast.net
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Fay Vietmeier

4 years ago #18

Joyce \ud83d\udc1d Bowen Brand Ambassador @ beBee I'm laughing at myself ... not sure why somethings are such a mystery to me ;~) I am so glad the "me" is thee Thanks Joyce ;~)
#20
Franci is Franci\ud83d\udc1dEugenia Hoffman, beBee Brand Ambassador. I am me. We are not the same person.

Fay Vietmeier

4 years ago #16

Joyce \ud83d\udc1d Bowen Brand Ambassador @ beBee (Part 2) This came to my mind as I was writing: Books by Kim Meeder ... https://www.amazon.com/s?k=kim+meeder+books&ref=nb_sb_noss Bridge of Hope (is one of the books) ... I read them years ago and gifted them to people who were "hurting" ... to those who found it hard to trust people (such as my dad) but developed a bond of trust with animals (especially dogs) Kim & her husband, Troy rescue abused animals (mostly) horses (but some other animals) ... over the years this effort became a ranch that ministers to to abused children (mostly) They offer programs to help connect hurting people with the horses ... https://www.crystalpeaksyouthranch.org/what-we-do/our-session-program/the-heart/ Which name do you prefer? Franci or Joyce?

Fay Vietmeier

4 years ago #15

Joyce \ud83d\udc1d Bowen Brand Ambassador @ beBee 12-30-19: I loved the word you used “enraptured” … the gift of a child should produce WONDER … it did for me ... when I became a Mom at age 45 … I SMILED so much my mouth hurt (I still remember) I LOVE being a Mom ... my son is a gift from God I say ongoing that “I am a blessed Mother” … my son has a beautiful heart When I went through a divorce he was just in 2nd grade … this experience broke his heart … I did not choose the breaking but still it occurred (I’m so used to suppressing feelings that that it took years to know that my heart was broken too) I appreciate your sharing about your son & YES: there are many corrupt systems that “break people” … double-mindedness & chosen blindness abound … reflecting that the “god of this age … rules I spoke of my own family … of “broken parents breaking their children” … but I know of NO “perfect” people … thus NO perfect parents (I can look at each of my siblings & identity the unique "breaking" ... at some point we have to recognize & seek healing ... which often does not happen until later in life (or not at all) Children who are abused ... do need ADVOCATES (I know this is very complicated) ... So much injustice and even evil to FIGHT I want to clarify when I say that all people are “broken” … I mean that human beings are born into a “sin condition” … and thus are imperfect “broken” … the question is where & how they are “broken” In my post “The Fractal State of Humanity” … this is further explained (fractal from Latin “broken”) https://www.bebee.com/producer/@fay-vietmeier-pennsylvania/the-fractal-state-of-humanity-the-hidden-forces-at-work-for-you-against-you
The below respose is for you, Fay Vietmeier
"As you know broken parents ... break their children ( brokenness is generational)" And no--I did not break my children. I was completely enraptured with my children. I would often say, "I had a childhood through my children." My children were broken by a terribly corrupt system. I have just helped my youngest struggle to his feet. He's 43. The joy of doing so is impossible to put into words. But it was a very tough road for a long time. I had to rely on others for a bit--then I took over and helped him remember treasured times. I dragged him out of bed one Sunday morning, and got him in the car and started driving. I wouldn't tell him where we were going--just like old times. We pulled into a beautiful property that housed a service dog facility. There are woods and trees and fields and ponds, and goats and multitudes of dogs and a lone mule keeping company with a number of donkeys. They set up a game with squares with numbered stickers on a table. When I asked what it was, they told me it's a raffle. "How do you pick the winner?" I asked. "We put a chicken on the table, and whatever number it shits on is the winner." My son smiled for the whole time we were there. I think he's going to be okay now. I think he really needed to know how important he is to me. Locking him up seemed to do it--go figure.
Fay Vietmeier "Thank you for clarifying in the comments that "the pursuit" is fiction" No--I said, "It was easy. It's nonfiction." The little girl was, indeed, me. It took me decades to overcome the trauma of those years, but I did. I learned to write in order to bring awareness to this issue. I became aware quite young that people knew what was happening and chose to do nothing. Abuse is now rampant in so many ways, it's hard to comprehend.

Fay Vietmeier

4 years ago #11

Franci\ud83d\udc1dEugenia Hoffman, beBee Brand Ambassador I keep wondering If I should call you "Franci" or "Joyce" Thank you for clarifying in the comments that "the pursuit" is fiction ... my heart was pounding with this frightened little girl ... to the end May lightening strike such a parent My mothers childhood & her siblings were filled with such terrors ... and worse I have considered writing on her behalf but it dredges pain that is hard to put in the right words I'll share that my mom was a poet ... writing was an expression for her She had no voice as a child ... or a wife (sadly) As you know broken parents ... break their children ( brokenness is generational) Soon I will share some of her poetry After she passed away in 2015 ... I found her poem "Words" I too had written "Words" (our "Words" did not find each other until after her death) https://www.bebee.com/producer/@fay-vietmeier-pennsylvania/what-do-your-words-say-about-you

Devesh 🐝 Bhatt

7 years ago #10

#12
my best wishes for the interview. I believe each of your readers would want you to be Child Advocate.
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Franci\ud83d\udc1dEugenia Hoffman It was easy. It's nonfiction. I'm trying to raise awareness. I'm glad my story held you to the end. It was my intention. I interview to become an official child advocate tomorrow. Here's hoping I can help. #11
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Donna-Luisa Eversley,
if you like this, (and have read it) slap it with a relevant, otherwise hold off.
Praveen Raj Gullepalli Sigh of relief? Look at it this way. In the end the predator caught the prey. It just happened that the predator had a designation attached that most of us view as friendly
sigh of relief? Look at it this way. In the end the predator caught the prey. It just happened that the predator had a designation attached that most of us view as friendly.

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