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Closing Doors

Throughout life, doors open and doors close. The openings are exciting: The closings are not. One might look at them like chapters in a book except for with chapters there is always a continuation. If we do not realize this, closing doors slam. It’s gentler if we acknowledge, early on, that there are stages of life—however small, that we need to understand.


The birth of my second child illuminated this process for me. In my post The Gift, I traversed the trauma of my baby’s first moments, days, and weeks. I remember vividly saying to myself the door to childbearing had closed. I simply could not bear carrying a child to term and nearly losing her or him at birth.

There are times we need to force doors shut. The situation may be poor, and we need to move on. 


I have seen many doors shut during my life. The openings are fewer. But the memories that lay beyond shut doors are still there. Sometimes they’re haunting. When we have unfinished business behind closed doors….

A particular memory behind one of my closed doors still haunts me. It’s this:


These are pictures and a discussion of blown inputs on a microscopic circuit. Yes—I know—who cares, but I did and still do. The problem dug at me, and I knew my proposed solution would negate the purpose of the device

This device had to be fast, like this:


My proposed solution (which I never spoke up about) would skew the speed of the device. When you work on your computer, you expect things to come up quickly—in the blink of an eye. If this device reacted slowly because of a circuit change—oops….


But I never piped up and got a. “Yes or No.”

My point? We travel on all sorts of roads in our lives. When we close those doors, we sometimes leave unfinished business behind. We also leave behind the people who could give us answers. It’s time to let go. Grumblegrumble Tickletickle But it’s difficult to do. 

( I remember little about the work I did, but this blares at me. The truth was, you just had to be damned careful with the device. Static electricity would blow out those little dark spots arrowed on the first circuit photo. Rub your foot on a carpet; touch the device and poof. Lucky me to be responsible for such a device. I kept a can of Static Guard on my workbench. )

Close the door on that one.


My work felt unfinished. Have you left unfinished business behind? Let it go. It’s healthy to move on in your journey. There are new adventures—new explorations. Old business will just hold you back.

This one’s for you Milos Djukic. The memory is a good one for me—exciting actually. But then—I was an egghead. Quality is poor, and the scan sucked. Looks better in real life. All those little electrons show up in the scan.



Copyright 2017 Joyce Bowen


About the Author:  Joyce Bowen is a freelance writer and public speaker.  Inquiries can be made at

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Thank you for that note, Paul \. Yes, yes--Twitter away!
I have no doubt, Louise Smith
Another very, very true.
Very very true, Milos Djukic
Thank you for the shares Ali \ud83d\udc1d Anani, Brand Ambassador @beBee.

Louise Smith

4 years ago #12

cont .... BUT Now I am older, I realise that I was good enough to be an OPERA SINGER BUT I'M Soooooooooooo GLAD I DIDN'T BECAUSE The stress of constantly travelling away from home, putting up with other people creating unnecessary drama, the gossip, the bullying, the fickle fans, the narcy reviews, the lack of real publicity & fearing the aging process that would have eventually put me on the shelf .... I DIDN'T NEED IT & ANOTHER DOOR OPENED !

Louise Smith

4 years ago #11

Joyce \ud83d\udc1d Bowen Brand Ambassador @ beBee I sang solo in front of an audience from the time I was 8 years old I sang Lead in school & other musicals I directed my own I sang in church, at weddings, on TV, with Pavarotti, in choirs, at Uni, in exams, in groups, at parties, at campfires, in cafes & for friends I studied Classical Singing, Piano & Guitar I REALLY wanted to be an OPERA SINGER BUT I didn't make it I took a year off work I studied I practiced twice a day I did exams BUT I didn't make it My friends who were already there, said I would I tried twice to get into the Conservatorium BUT At 23yo I was too old They wanted 18yo straight from high school not me I cannot describe how devestated I felt It took years for me to come to terms with giving up my dream & learning to accept "failure"

Lisa Vanderburg

4 years ago #10

Great imagery Joyce \ud83d\udc1d Bowen Brand Ambassador @ beBee! Trap doors, revolving doors...there are some never meant to be opened. Once cracked, it's really hard to close: insomnia's one!

Ken Boddie

4 years ago #9

Hey, Joyce, when you’re up to the armpits in shit and crocodiles it’s hard to be positive, but I firmly believe that closed doors give us an opportunity to focus on where the next door will open. It may not happen straight away, but it will happen, and when it does, it may not always look like a door.

Milos Djukic

4 years ago #8

Very true Jim Cody \ud83d\udc1d Brand Ambassador.

Milos Djukic

4 years ago #7

"D. E. Berlyne pointed out in his book “Aesthetics and psychobiology” (1971) that perceptions of beauty increase linearly with visual complexity, until an optimum level is reached and then decrease. Some scientific research has clearly indicated that fractal patterns (fingerprints of nature) have also an impact on a stress relief. Microscopy is an ideal research tool for sure. I see them more by microscope, but also in everyday life. Discover and enjoy." - from "Fractals, Beauty of Complexity", LI long-form post published on May 11, 2014. What matters is to make a connection between the micro and the macro world. Looking at ourselves through the microscope we see that we are micro too, and only then the macro is no longer scary. They're together all the time. The science is looking into a closed door all the time. If we were micro, and we were, at least it was worthy. Cheers my friend Joyce \ud83d\udc1d Bowen Brand Ambassador @ beBee

Milos Djukic

4 years ago #6

Thank you Joyce \ud83d\udc1d Bowen Brand Ambassador @ beBee!
Very true, Jim. I did open some doors that caused regrets. Don't we all?
Thank you Ali \ud83d\udc1d Anani, Brand Ambassador @beBee, for your thoughtful comment.
True--but isn't it exciting?
Life like the sodium and potassium pumps in our bodies. When one closes the other passes and vice versa. Sometimes closing a door to shut up something will open the door for something else to pass such as a memory, but then it closes to open another door for another opportunity. I wrote a buzz on closed minds versus open minds. You encourage me with your very thoughtful buzz Joyce \ud83d\udc1d Bowen Brand Ambassador @ beBee desrves no less quality tribute than your buzz.

Pascal Derrien

4 years ago #1

Georgian doors, electric doors, doors with sensors are legion, they hide anything from the horror ambassador to members from the friendly region, but one needs to always to be wary there is always a risk of contagion when one undertakes unchartered exploration.... :-)

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